so many "what if" just pop out of my head

thinking about the first day of work on Mon!

Me: Baby what if my colleagues dun wanna

eat lunch with me and i have eat alone? :(

Me: What if they backstab me or bully me? :(

Baby: Don't worry la, you so smart. If they dare

bully you then Kan them! don't need to be scare!

Me: (smiling inside, he said i'm smart) Hee... :D

Its best to hear praises from ppl that matter the most.

Meet up with Cache Cache colleagues on the

18th for pre-christmas gathering and we

had BBQ chicken followed by the long-craved

log cake and other deserts @ Bakerzin!

CHRISTMAS was a blast this year!

spent the Eve with Baby, Sam and the rest at

Pasir Ris Park for BBQ!

Met Baby after his work on Chistmas and

we had Aburiya for Dinner!!!

Went all the way to Robertson Quay for

our Japanese BBQ~ YUMMY!

tried their famous Wagyu beef and its so juicy!

we even ate the tongue! as it was part of the set.

Satisfied overall! thank you Baby!

Headed to town afterwards and wanted to watch movie,

but it was all full house! so went to the arcade instead!

played some games and Baby caught a Hello Kitty for me!

for just $4.00!!! hehehehehe....

think we gonna be some pro in catching toys!

LOL!

And we watched Bodyguards and assassins on Boxing Day!

definitely expected more actions! too much dialogue!

Shld have watch Sherlock Holmes instead!

Shiok Shiok! long holidays!

Baby thank you for the company! :D

hope we'll still get to meet up often

even after i start work :(

Tonkichi for dinner on our 2 year anni,
nth much cos Baby was sick and came
over to the clinic down my hse for the 3rd time.
he's going for army body check up tmr,
hopefully nth is wrong with him.
Watched Couples retreat ytd, not as funny
as expected and the storyline like meaningless
plus there's too much talking and arguing
throughout the show, not nice.
Shld have watch New Moon instead but Baby
haven watch part 1.

Out with BFF agn on friday.
thanks for the accompany to the interview k.
then we headed to town, walk walk
had wanton noodles at fareast B1 and headed
Slice for ice cream!

And woke up today feeling sick :(
ARGH! must be the lack of slp!
damn it!

BABY Happy 2 Years!

♥ ♥ ♥

Baby caught an Elmo for me with just 1 try!

so lucky right!?

HAHA!

and we're addicted to the Ben & Jerry's machine!

i managed to catch a strawberry cheesecake one for him!

well... nothing much for the weekends,

watched Ninja Assassin, NC16,

very bloody and Baby said it was too fake and 3D,

prefer more actions and less bloody scenes.

story line not bad, and Rain's body is not bad too!

of cos la, train like 8 or 9 mths eh!

looking forward to Thursday!

and that reminded abt completing the "stuff" soon!

Hee... i bet he'll like it!

So Cute right?! LOL :D

think we look good in our masks! HAHAHA (:

love this! ♥

have been busy with work, and the lousy schedule!

enuff of ranting, i'm not gonna do it here.

well... christmas is round the corner...

and i'm broke too, can't wait for pay day!

am thinking hw to spend my christmas this year,

besides maybe a bbq with Sam, her bf and some others...

2012 was great, the story was as expected,

but the effect was not bad.

so do you think 23 dec 2012 is gonna come?

like 2 days before christmas and SJ bday if i'm not wrong.

well... i don't think so eh.

HAHA!

when you thought its all perfect and nth more that you can ask for

i still can't forget about it.

and i finally understand what ppl meant by

you can forgive but nv forget.

its beyond my principle, and

something that i nv knew i could do it.

if i didn't experience it myself,

thats no way i would have agreed abt it.

its really difficult for me,

but of cos things are gonna be different from the past,

i can't promise that i wun bring it up one day.

and i'll nv forget abt it.

the trust that was built has got little worth now.

i'm really disappointed abt wad happened,

especially when you don't expect it coming at all.

i know i shld not think abt it anymore and move on,

but how is it possible?

time might heal it, but the scar will remain there forever.

Happiness comes about as simple as it can be,

its only complicated as you made it to be (quoted from Tisa).

i guess we'll nv be happy when you compare ur lives

with others whose better than yours,

but have you tried comparing it with those unfortunate ones?

sometimes the simplest things in life is happiness,

and its not that hard to achieve.

on the way to meet Afeefa at bedok

its supper at simpang!

for Gui Fang's farewell :'(

Cockles!!! FAV!!

Stingray! too spicy for me! haha

chicken and beef satays! :D

best roti john i ever ate! (mushroom cheese)

this pic is super cute! check out Candy's (aka D***head) face! HAHAHHA

crazy Gui Fang with Afeefa

another crazy girl, Yan Peng aka Gong Gong!

had fun eating and crapping with the girls!

more supper to come in future! :D

since all of us stay in the east, shld be easier i guess!

my new found friends! LOL

new blog banner done!

nice right?! hee...

headings is still under construction,

will get it done soon!

Butter scallops! super good!

Sushi grandeur, salmon one is best (:

Baby's bibimbap

My Okonomiyaki!

Mixing his bibimbap

forget wad this is called.. something like mochi with

mango, strawberry, red bean and ice cream!

Super nice show, definitely worth to watch even on a weekends.

Managed to catch it on Halloween with Baby,

scenes of Michael Jackson tgt with his dancers, back up singers,

band, etc. rehearsing for the concert.

Can imagine how much effort every single one put in

and how MJ as a perfectionist would want his audiences to

be satisfied and overwhelmed by every single details.

Its really sad to lost such a talented person and also

the last concert that is meant to be.

nobody will ever forget abt him, may you rip MJ...

♡♥ HAPPY 23 MONTHS BABY ♥♡

Milk Tea and yummy pearls (:

Fermented Chicken Cutlet w rice

Bacon and Sausage with mushroom..

weird taste..

Chicken Mee Sua

So Cute!

Baby's dream come true! HAHAHA

The photo was kinda blur so i smudged it (:

Was kinda paranoid after looking at the past photos

and compared it was the present, just thot i look old.

so i decided to cut my fringe, best of all i did it MYSELF!

and it actually looks quite okay,

even my colleagues thot i went to a salon.

but i'm still gonna get it trim next week.

hope i look younger! lol

Sister's keeper ytd with Baby

and its so touching :'( as expected.

whole packet of tissue gone can!

plus the air con in Grand Cathay was super cold!

and i can't stop sniffing!

but it was a good show after all.

if u intend to watch it, just prepare tissue first k

HAHA!

Anw, our 2 yrs is coming,

and i've some ideas what to do alr,

but i'm still thinking what else to buy...

Just gonna wait for pay day to the long awaited Kuishin-Bo buffet!

and buy my materials, can't wait to get my hands on it!

lalala~

Some overdue photos!

BKK trip and Sam plus Jo's bday (:

While waiting to board the plane (:

finally arrive at Thailand after 2hrs (:

Just checked in our room

Baby look as though he's going punch him! lol

A&W! was so excited when i saw the shop!

on our way to Siam via the shuttle bus

Our Casio watches! Baby's hot pink (:

Baby eyes almost can't be seen after 3 sleepless nights! hehe..

Swensens there are kinda popular, but they only sell ice creams

Our flight was delayed! and we waited in the airport for 6 hrs!!! damn sucky!

celebrated Sam and Jo's bday at some Jap restaurant

with irritating bitch! HAHA!

followed by some chilling at the bar with red wine

Fk drove us back early that night

BKK trip was over all quite fun, shop the whole day!

and we tried their leg massage after

walking ard the night market for a few hrs.

the clothes, food and cab there is cheap,

dun mind going agn! with Sam and her Dar Ren!

HAHA

The Tuktuk drivers there are damn irritating!

thot its meant to be another public transport where you tell them

where u wanna go and negotiate the price as there's no meter

compared to a taxi, but the driver keep pestering you to take u

to other places like wad tiger shows and china town..

and the taxis there are crazy, not just them, in fact all the car drivers.

you'll just turn speechless after you know how they drive!

really like no government!

Anw, managed to drag my lazy ass on a Sunday afternoon

with Baby to downtown east and cycle! fun fun!

plus its like a form of exercise.

Ice skating next k! :D

i'm screwed in their eyes!

but i dun care! cos i insist on doing wad i wanna do in MY life!

i dun care if anyone thinks that i'm selfish!

hate to go home and face them.

hate to repeat over and over agn abt the same topic.

feeling damn fucked up.

Samantha's 20th bday! and our 22 months (:

Phuture ytd was fun! really enjoyed the company.

but as usual was damn crowded,

and the music was so-so only

cos its a Saturday!

BKK in 5 days! :D

YAY!

i'm stuck between 2 paths that i have to choose right now.

1. sign 3 1/2 years of paramedic bond

2. find a full time retail job and settle down

main goal: be happy and start saving money

if i choose 1,

the pay is definitely way higher and save more and faster

but i know at the end of the day, its not what i

really really want to do which will lead to less happy!

and the job obviously got less freedom!

if i choose 2,

the pay will be normal, enough to survive, shld be

living happier than choice 1 cos more freedom

but definitely reach my goal slowly.

its about choosing between earning less, happier

or earning more but not so happy.

if you were given 2 choices similar to these,

which would you choose?

attempt to make mac & cheese w Baby for the first time...

FAILED! :( too cheesy! HAHHA! but it was fun after all!

Dinner at Ikea w Baby :D

Salmon stuffed w Chicken...

so-so only!

chicken wings damn nice!

love meatballs!

Neoprints! omg old school right?!

Baby trying to act cute w the hospital mask!

LOL! (:

Date w Eileen! Pizza hut and G-force!

Their pasta sucks! like seriously!

the advertisement is CRAP!

Caught Snowie munching his carrot while lying down!

Kawaii neh!

counting down to 14 days! :D

lalalala~

Celerated YM's and HP's 21st ytd!

but diff chalet, so we were running both places.

it was really nice to meet up with the db ppl agn!

and it was more like a gathering,

cos YM was totally gone after mixing beer

and the liquor we gave him. HAHA!

i guess everyone react differently when they're drunk.

was kinda funny though (:

reached home ard 2 plus in the morning,

got a free ride from Monster* HAHHA!

couldn't slp till 4 plus and woke up this morning

at 8 plus to work :(

am so tired now, SHAG!

19 days to BKK trip! hehehe :D

came home after work today,

am so tired! :(

cos ytd night i couldn't slp at all!

gonna shower and meet Sam and Baby for lunch/dinner?

Had lots of fun ytd with Baby at Ehub (:

Went arcade, took neoprints and

watched Gamer!

Planned to go bowling but i chicken out

after looking at the crowd inside.

HAHHAHA!

cos i scare paiseh!

alright, gotta shower and get out.

my legs are aching :(

YAY! BKK on the 9th-12th Oct!

lalalalala~

so excited! :D

Have been browsing through youtube and

i came across some videos on make-ups,

as most of you all know i'm not a big fan of make-ups

and i seldom wear them only when there's a need

or when i feel like it.

i don't like to cover my face with

foundation/concealer/powder etc.

because i think its gonna block the pores and

make your complexion turn really bad

and worse if you don't remove them properly.

some how i still enjoy the videos and imagine myself

like a make up artist! HAHAH!

okay i know thats funny.

Go to youtube and look for videos by Michelle Phan

she touch on the different themes e.g, smoky eyes,

anime eyes, clubbing, birthday, basics tips, removal and

even curling of your hair with just PAPER BAGS!

(i'm so gonna try it like one of this days!) LOL~

Or visit www.fashionface.tv by two sisters,

Nicola and Samantha who are professional make-up

artists in London. They focus on everything that you

need to know about make-ups e.g, different brushes,

trends, celebrities and basics.

There's also a forum for you to ask questions.

Anw i didn't go to Butter in the end :(

ARGH! irritaing...

cos i think i feel weird if there's only the polo guys ard.

and Baby say waste of money, i can use it for shopping instead!

which i agree to a certain extent but hate it at the same time!

how to compare shopping and clubbing,

its like 2 diff thing wad, always say waste money.

its been really long since i club,

like dunno how many freaking months!

i mean i'm not a fan, but its fun to go once in a while.

Then he'll say, "its okay, we'll go tgt other days"

WADEVA!

and he pissing me off now by not replying!

in the first place, i didn't want to bother him,

but he msg me first and asked wad i'm doing,

then i replied but he's replying like half an hr to an hr

for some freaking straight forward question!

if dun want to reply then dun msg right,

i mean its not as if i'm a possessive freak

and kept texting or calling him every 15 mins/half an hr

to ask him wad he is doing in the club or wad so ever!

Alright, i'm gonna take a bath and cool myself down!

there were many times when i got this feeling that i'm expecting something,
but at the same time, i knew its not gonna happen.
hmmm... let's say you expect a surprise from someone,
doesn't have to be big and complicated,
just something simple, but you just know its not gonna happen.
it supposed to be our 21 months today and normally we don't
celebrate it like monthly, just some simple msges to show that we rmb and care.
But if we do have the time, we'll just meet up like normal.
i just thought there might be just a slight chance/possibility that he might pop by today,
but on the another hand, i alr knew he's going for his trg instead.
And every time he never fail to prove that wrong.
i am a little disappointed, but i guess its fine.
i'm trying to convince myself that i'm expecting too much.

Wore my new heels out today with Baby,

and i got like 2 blisters and my feet is aching like mad!

wad to do, the consequences of being vain! HAHA

i'm not used to wearing heels cos i seldom wear them

and new shoes always hurts, don't they?

wanted to go Newton for dinner after our movie at Cathay,

but my feet couldn't take it anymore!

so we settled for Ashtons instead.

Year One was kinda funny, but story line is so-so only.

Sorry for the changes and last min plans today,

but sometimes its okay to be flexible right? (:

Anw, HAPPY 21 MONTHS BABY!

i admit that i was a little disappointed just now,

but after a second thought, i guess its fine.

Looking forward to our Bangkok trip!

hopefully there'll be some stuff for me to shop,

cos i'm really tempted to shop this few days

but tried to refrain myself so i can spend more there!

have been living quite unhealthily these days,

so i'm gonna plan my daily activities properly!

more fruits, more water, more sleep and more exercise!

was pondering if i shld get the black or red heels in the shop
for almost half an hour after i tried both,
its different design and its difficult to compare them.
so in the end i decided to get the red one cos i like it more,
but the black one can match more of my clothes.
but i know either one i choose, i'll miss the other :(
so now i'm alr thinking abt the black one.
HAHA!
maybe i'll go get it tmr.
LOL!
one shot get two heels, so greedy :D
but i still love my red heels!
and i'm gonna wear it tmr!
i guess clothes, shoes, accessories are never enough for girls,
and wonder why most guys can just live with that few pairs/pieces?
but of cos i know of a guy, who have plenty of shoes, clothes, caps.
Thats none other than my second brother!
He's as vain as a girl, but fret not, he's not gay though.
I want to watch Year One!
i bet its gonna be super funny with Jack Black!
and weekdays tixs are cheaper! (:
been slping really late these days and i know
its super bad for my health and complexion but
i cant seems to fall aslp too early! :(
and i think i have insomnia!?
normally i'll turn and toss ard for an hr or more
if i go to be early or when i dun feel tired/sleepy yet.
and thats super irritating!
Anw, will be going bangkok on the second week of Oct!
wanted to go on the firs week, but..
Sam's birthday on the 3rd! HAHA!
are you touched? hee...

after my hair is chopped off by Ivan!

its seriously quite a big diff compared to the one before!

trying to act cute! HAHA

(:

slacking at Starbucks after dinner with Sam

at Golden mile (:

Beef Noodles from Golden Mill! Superb!

their milk tea are nice too!

salted egg with some chicken, not very nice...

one if the days when Samantha is supposed to go jogging with us,

anw, i was the only jogging in the end, so Hwee's muscles aching.

Me and Caren at Sentosa!

i need to go tanning agn soon!

but the weather sucks these days...

MY Care Bear and Sunflower (:

Credit to Mum and Dad (: Yummy!

Watched Fighting

Came home after the movie and eat my bday cake!

Baby was singing bday song for me HAHA :D

Tonkichi! the one at taka, damn good! (:

that's mine! mix of Tempura and Chicken!

Baby's Pork with Curry (:

Act camera shy as usual! LOL

:D

Zhi De, i forced him to do that! HAHA!

Ice Cream for dessert!

Met up with Shern the other day for some stuffs*

HAHA

Then she treat me for Supper cos she felt bad!

LOL

Sinful x100000000

The new mixture of drink,

carrot + 100plus = Shern's fav! LOL

At Joey's house with Tisa for 'baking' session! (:

our lunch, credit to Joey for cooking instant noodles for us (:

Ended up making cheesecake, no baking needed!

HAHA

Thats the crust in the bowl, the best part (:

Macaroons from Tisa! :D

Act cute (: LOL

From Tisa, nice shot right? (:

OMG can finally upload photos after so long!
Anw, just when i thought things is gonna be better after i got transferred to Tampines!

but sadly the manager alr planned the schedule for sept w/o me

as that bloody Ion manager didn't tell her like earlier!

and i only got like total of 3 shifts plus tmr

i need to work in the office all the way at Ubin!

most probably doing stocks! DAMN

and its very troublesome to get there as there's only one bus!

ARGH! irritating!

Met up with primary school mates on Sat for lunch

and we did managed to catch up quite alot after 8 years?!!

its really nice to know that everyone is doing good,

some flying overseas like Australia and US for attachments,

while some are still schooling in polys and one in NS alr.

oh well.. time flies!

as much as i wanna slack and play ard,

sometimes i do hope that i know what exactly i want in life

and start taking actions to plan for the next step.

WADEVA! just go for Bangkok trip first!

WAHAHHA :D